Thursday, May 27, 2010

ah...



ah...

Drinking German beer
and trying to come up with 
the immortal poem at
5 p.m. in the afternoon.
but, ah, I´ve told the
students that the thing 
to do is not to try.

but when the women aren´t
around and the horses aren´t 
running
what else is there to do?

I´ve had a couple of 
sexual fantasies
had lunch out
mailed three letters
been to the grocery store.
nothing on tv.
the telephone is quiet.
I´ve run dental floss
between my teeth.

it won´t rain and I listen
to the early arrivals from the
8 hour day as they
drive in and park their cars
behind the apartment
next door.

I sit drinking German beer
and trying to come up with the
big one
and I´m not going to make it.
I´m just going to keep drinking
more and more German beer
and rolling smokes
and by 11 p.m.
I´ll be spread out
on the unmade bed
face up
asleep under the electric 
light
still waiting on the immortal
poem.

-Charles Bukowski

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Ahahahahaha


Welcome home
ahahahahahah
Welcome home
Don´t run
just walk
silently 
up the stairs
and I will
welcome you home

Don´t stare 
don´t smile 
not yet
first I need to 
frighten you a little

Wait for my scream
then wait for my laughter
I can´t help but
play this game

Welcome home
ahahahahaha
I knew you would stay
I knew we could
 laugh ourselves
into the future
Welcome home
ahahahahahaha

- Kristin Hjellegjerde

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Dalai Lama in New York!

S.S. o Dalai Lama by Elton Melo.
Picture taken by Elton Melo

The Art of Happiness
A Handbook for Living
by
Dalai Lama and Howard C. Cutler. M.D.

Elizabeth from the great and inspiring Elizabeth Avedon Blog put some gorgeous photos of the Dalai Lama taken by Richard Gere today. This made me inspired to write about "The Art of Happiness" that I read a while back. Dalai Lama will be in N.Y. City the next four days offering teachings and public talks at Radio City Music Hall.

Dalai Lama, the smiling, loving definitively deserving Nobel Prize winner is spreading his happiness, that he is known for in this book. Helping us learn to deal with our worries and to think of happiness as the purpose of life.

Here are some quotes from the book:

"The purpose of our existence is to seek happiness."

"If we utilize our favorable circumstances, such as our good health or wealth, in positive ways, in helping others, they can be contributory factors in achieving a happier life."

"The greater the level of calmness of our mind, the greater our peace of mind, the greater our ability to enjoy a happy and joyful life."

- I am working hard on this one...being calm....

"We don´t need more money, we don´t need greater success or fame, we don´t need the perfect body or even the perfect mate - right now, at this very moment, we have a mind, which is all the basic equipment we need to achieve complete happiness."

"If you maintain a feeling of compassion, loving kindness, then something automatically opens your inner door. Through that, you can communicate much more easiliy with other people. And that feeling of warmth creates a kind of openness. You´ll find that all human beings are just like you, so you´ll be able to relate to them more easily."

"Everyday as soon as you get up, you can develop a sincere positive motivation, thinking, I will utilize this day in a more positive way. I should not waste this very day. And then, at night before bed, check what you´ve done, asking yourself, Did I utilize this day as i Planned?"

"The turning-toward happiness as a valid goal and the conscious decision to seek happiness in a systematic manner can profoundly change the rest of our lives."

"We need to actively cultivate the antidotes to hatred; patience and tolerance."

Please let me remember this one:

"If there is a solution to the problem, there is no need to worry. If there is no solution, there is no sense of worrying either"

"So if our definition of love is based on a genuine wish for someone´s happiness, then each of us does in fact love himself or herself - every one of us sincerely wishes for his or her own happiness."

As the book opens with.

Dedicated to the Reader:

MAY YOU FIND HAPPINESS.

Love Kristin

Thursday, May 13, 2010

I don´t know how

I don´t know how to stop the time
while I turn the pancake
change a diaper,
run the stairs, brush through the paper
pay the contractor, talk to the gardner
call the plumber that never shows
play games, hide and seek
Laugh a bit, cry a bit,
See lots of Art, feel the Art
Just be, be at many places at one time
I can´t miss out on the good times, bad times
try to be a good friend, mother, lover
just how can I sit down and just watch
the ocean for a few minutes,
When I don´t know how to stop the time?

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Failing to Fall

Ten times trying
Ten times failing
the hours leaving
while urgently
grabing for the hours
I could sink
sink into an endlessness
of opportunities
bring me to dreams
I could not come up
with, not without
falling
falling
endlessly into a world
of no control